as those of you might know from my frequent complaints in the past, i do suffer from insomnia quite a lot. but those were nothing compared to what i have now.
my new recently updated insomnia is ridiculous! what used to happen to me is that no matter what time i go to bed, i stay awake until 3 or 4 am and finally sleep because my body simply don't have the energy to go on, sort of like a car running completely out of fuel. but my body seems to have acquired a new upgrade. apparently i now have a system installed in my body that will recharge it's battery veeeeery slowly, which is fine. i can now stay awake longer and don't get tired as quick. but the negative side is that i'm never completely out of juice and hence can never seem to fall asleep, unless the regeneration system can't keep up.
sounds too complicated? well i'll tell you what happens nowadays.
i go to bed around 12am to 1am, lie in bed for a long time, and watch the sun rise from my bed through my window. what happens is that i feel very, incredibly fresh even at 1am, but force myself to go to bed because i know i have classes from 8am. my mind then consciously for itself into subconsciousness, which is like trying to life yourself into the air by lifting your butt with your hands. it's just not gonna happen! result, i go tired as the regen system can't keep up (output>input), total energy goes close to 0% and my body goes into sleep mode.
but everyone knows that in sleep mode the human body spends next to no energy, so as soon as i recover maybe 3% of my energy, my body automatically reboots itself and i'm fully awake again. this cycle of getting tired, go into sleep mode, recharge phase, and reboot takes about 10 minutes so the result is that i can never sleep for more than 5 minutes and by 8am, the most i have is 3% energy. which isn't fine.
after experimenting for a few weeks, apparently the only time which i can properly sleep is 10am and i wake up, genuinely fully charged, at 4pm.
anyone know how to uninstall this shitty automatic upgrade and go back to factory version?
